Monday, May 29, 2006

Why can't i move on with my f'king life.

Mama take this badge from me
I can't use it anymore
It's getting dark too dark to see
Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

Mama put my guns in the ground
I can't shoot them anymore
That cold black cloud is comin' down
Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door



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Saturday, May 27, 2006

I am no longer in the fucking national day parade.
YES.

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Thursday, May 25, 2006

i am in the fucking national day parade.
I am in the mother fucking national day parade
i am in the fucking nationfsdfo dasdadtp arpd
fdasfdsfs cs,sd,fd,fdfcx

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Monday, May 22, 2006

Should every single song reminds me somewhat of you, i'm going to go mad one day.
This one reminded me of the pub at changi village, the night we both got spooked out because of an encounter. And this was the last song that was played in the pub.

Closing time,
Open all the doors and let you out into the world,
Closing time,
Turn all of the lights on over every boy and every girl,
Closing time,
One last call for alcohol,
So finish your whisky or beer,
Closing time,
You don't have to go home but u can't stay here

- Green days ; closing time.

It's ironic how the song ends..

Every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end.

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Else, i've finally completed my vehicular repair training and i am ready to take off my P plate for trainees :) I now can (very barely) fix a forklift, or a larc V ( or more commonly known to the layman as the DUCKTOUR!! :D ). YES! I can fix them stupid duckies! Even though you will never be near me at the end of the day when i've serviced one of them ducks :)

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Sunday, May 21, 2006

If i am a boss one day, i would declare monday a half day, and ask my workers to work the second part of the day only. Sundays are beginning to be the day i dread, its the day that is before the start of a dreary week.

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Any one with a good cosmetic facial doctor to recommand? I wanna go for a good facial sometime soon.. my face and its adverse condition it faces everyday.. i need some good.

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Saturday, May 20, 2006

Loved the smooth BMW drive. Sat in my aunt's BM today, and boy it sure changed my opinion of it. Smooth and quiet drive, its power is so efficient. Maybe it looks as ah pek's as a mercs but it sure packs enough horse power.

Over dinner, my aunt and i had the usual family chat, over relationships, businesses, finances, jobs, my future ( what else! ) , politics (!), and just general idle chat. And what struck me most was what she mentioned about friends.

She said one only need few friends in life, and these are the true friends you will ever need. They are the one that gives you a sense of direction in life, and will guide you along the right paths in life.

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And i thought to myself, i knew of that ONE single special person, once. I really knew.

But maybe life has (greater/other) plans for me. I hope to see that person again, i really still do, despite the fact that i'm drawing myself further and further away from that one person, for the fear of being rejected, for the fear of hurting her, and generally, giving her the breathing space she desires. I really wished she would just say hello to me someday, somehow, but... the general feeling is its not gonna happened anytime in the near future. Not now.

God, give me the damm strength to succeed. Amen.

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Friday, May 19, 2006

Im always at a loss what happens when my 'visions' come to reality, just as how i had an unknown uneasy feeling in the afternoon of Sept 11 2001.

Just yesterday, i asked myself what i would do if a stray dog came a-knocking on my door step. Should i harbour it ( the dog-lover i am ), or should i just abandon it because no one in my household has the time for it?

When i woke up today, my brother received a call from my mom telling him 'the white stray dog could be still lurking around outside our house'.

:) I wished the doggy would stay put to allow me to ponder my options. God-sent? Perharps. Just not fated.

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

I've gotten hooked to " Men are from mars , women are from venus ", the book i dubbed only for girls at first glance ( its purple! ) . I only had a few flip through a couple of paragraphs, and although tragic, each individual stories only reiterate the true meaning of love and life, and more importantly, the way to a relationship ( which i lacked ).

It made me rethink what kinda person i was.

When i first started out, i realised only now i only understood the meaning of giving, not loving.
With her, i only knew the meaning of loving, not giving.

Listening to : Ryan Cabera's Fall baby fall.

P.s Remember ryan cabera? The guy with the cheesiest, and yet, sweetest love lyrics.

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Saturday, May 13, 2006

I hate sleeping, because you're the only person that appears in my dream. ( besides the 5million dinosaurs, tigers, monsters )

I hate waking up, because you're the first person i would yearn to reach out to, but i know now, that you'll never be there again.

Please come back to me.

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Monday, May 01, 2006

Presenting to you the sole independent candidate of Springapore's general erection TALK ONLY PARTY



- We promise you we'll TALK ONLY
- Don't give a fuck shit about your current issue
- Don't pretend that we come to your estate once every five years, pat your ugly looking son and still want your filthy vote
-Don't wish to upgrade your life, god gave you your god damm legs to climb. Handicapped? They raised the med taxes so that you'll have the will to recover faster


Please, vote for us in this coming erection! Any questions? Our neighbouring allie has this to say to you :

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[12:20:40 AM] try to say g: life is smelly
[12:20:48 AM] i am in grea: hahhhahahha
[12:20:51 AM] i am in grea: well that actually depends where you're
standing at
[12:21:00 AM] i am in grea: if you find it smelly.. then move away
from the garbage truck.

See, sometimes we are caught up with life to notice the simple things around us. Have i been too caught up in the whirlwind of emotions that i've forgotten to live?

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