Sunday, April 30, 2006

many quiet nights,
with thoughts of you.

It's time like that i learned to smile,
to despair in my heart.
Because you're so far away,
and you would never say you care.

I miss the love we once share.
I miss the time you once cared.
I miss the days you were there,
to tell me you'll always be there.

See, so many nights, you've proven me right.

See, so many empty nights, you've proven us right.

If these few meaningless words were an indication to my dedication, then i ought to say more. But even as i try hard to forget, it only makes me think of it more. I miss you, min.


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Saturday, April 29, 2006

Hello again long weekend. What a week it has been.

It'll be nice and sentimental to start off the weekend blog by marking the dismise of one of the most memorable places of all times - chinablack. Thursday was the official last night of black, and thereafter, it ceased. Black was the place where i had my most fun, had witnessed various amount of fights, and generally grew up with the people around me that clubbed. It was the place that took me to high haven, and eventually, the very place i fell out with the very person i still am in love with today. Goodbye to repeated Rnb tracks, goodbye to ludicrious inserted chinese songs, goodbye to cheap $10 jugs and goodbye to the goodlookingcrowdthatgrewuglierwithage.

And what healthy event other than the general election to stir the emotions and hearts of singapore. Political satires withbearing ; the rallies and manifestos have been dull and uncolourful, unlike the past events. The motions transpired amongst the heart of the people were tame and unmeaningful, and one can only call certain calls for certain motions at best, lofty.

Else, there were lesser matters to be reported upon on Sinfulindulgence.blogspot.com. Life is, and will be revolving around bulldozers, forklifts, ignorant supervisors who demand respects, stupid cock suckers. And decent people that are in general the reason for my existance.

But the irony lives. If decent people maketh the reason for my existance, why do beautiful people like minmin makes me half dead/half alive?

Memories and excuses are the whats that stopping me from livin up this life
its what making me sane.

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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

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Saturday, April 15, 2006

Instructions: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING!!!

How does the world see me?
hottest thing - usher HAHAHA

Will I have a happy life?
let me love you - mario

What do my friends really think of me?
together forver - Rick Astley

Do people secretly lust after me?
pieces of me- Ashley Simpson ( note : my brother's gay song, not mine, happens to be on my winmed )

How can I make myself happy?
can you feel the love tonight - disney

What should I do with my life?
teenage dirtbag - wheatus


Will I ever have children?
i wish it would rain down - eric clapton & phil collins


What is some good advice for me?
Cannon ball - Damien rice


How will I be remembered?
the reason - hoobastank

What is my signature dancing song?
save me - corrine may

What do I think my current theme song is?
breathe - Michelle branch

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
don't wanna try - Frankie J

What song will play at my funeral?
Wonderwall - oasis ( awesome song to be played at my funeral if you ask me )

What type of men/women do I like?
cure for the itch - Linkin Park

What is my day going to be like?
hey mama - BEP

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I'll let you decide which are the songs that are pretty relevant ( or so i think ), some pretty quirky, but that's life for you isn't it?

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Thursday, April 13, 2006

The holiday's here! yay, long weekend to burn. Burn what? Burn a hole in my pocket, burn my skin charred, burn incense to god. Random.

And i finally hurled myself to BBDC to register myself as a private candidate for the driving test! No point getting this fuckers to coach me, i'll just get pissed and start penning lengthy, but unmeaningful letters to their managements.

I'm hooked onto Corrine may's everything in its time currently, and yes, sorry for being so slow to catch up with corrine may but i think she ( her vocals ) are beautiful. And it doesn't hurt as well that the lyrics are pretty insightful.

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

Long weekend to catch up on my sleep, my life, and my studies. And to heal the two fucking big ulcers in my mouth, which means i have to abstain from drinking... too much..

Happy easters everyone!

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Saturday, April 08, 2006

I won First prize in 4d for the first time in my life!! :D
WOOOOOOOOOO

Even though i only won $166 for the ibet punt ( 2000 / 12 ), i'm happpppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !!!

4288!!

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Friday, April 07, 2006

I couldn't fund my a levels in time to register for the exams.

Because i've decided not to trouble my parents,

not to seek help from anyone else,

but god's not on my fucking side.

I want to show i can still stand up strong

Why is it you won't fucking let me?

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Thursday, April 06, 2006

As the roll call for today's routine order read that the seven trainees under sembawang camp were to be promoted to be coporals as of the 10 of april, i was momentarily overjoyed. Then common sense struck me to pose the most sensible question. " Sergent, i only got O level leh, can be promoted meh? " " err, i go check for you hor, today RO not printed out cuz computer spoil so i don't have your names leh "

1 hours later, i left camp, feeling fucking dejected.

The yearning for recognition has always been a crucial part of my life, and not to be recognized today for the same effort that i've put in amongst my platoon mate sucks to the core.

I thought it was the next worse feeling to being dumped.

Qualifications, are we all destined to be judge by that solidatary piece of paper?

Today marked another low point of my life.

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Wednesday, April 05, 2006

5 short randoms about me today

- i'm hooked onto corrine may so much it's on its overdrive

- i lack determination to wanting to read my c maths text ( but your name on the book changes that )

- I am posted to a new camp today

- Waiting is not a practical option, it's more surrealistic, and are best for dreamers (pisecians) like me

- I need a job.

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Monday, April 03, 2006

I think i blogged about serendipity the movie and i am going to blog about it today again nevertheless.

I remembered watching serendipity the movie a couple of years ( or probably months ) back ago, and i thought the movie must be one of the sweetest movies . I must admit i have pretty low recallation for not-so-well known hollywood stars ( googled and then i realised the lead was John Cusack and Kate beckinsale, whose names are familiar but names i can't put a face to ), but i must admit i do recall enjoing the movie rather tremendously.

I then thought to myself how sweet it would be to serendipiti(zed). Looking for that special unknown one, somewhere out there. True love is already hard to find, what else about imaginative true love? These emotional tingles, i should just quit being a wimp.

The entire concept of serendipity is sounding just like me right now. Silly, love-lorn, clueless, and yet eternally optimistic. Yes, go on and chide me, i've resented to faith.

*edited, listening to what else, but OST of Serendipity, and specially to one my of my favouritest sounds of all time distant - evan and jaron

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