Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Very tired.
Time is never ever on my side even if i try to reason with it. I've even quit my regular 10 pm hk serial shows to put aside some time for myself, but no matter how hard i try, time is always insufficient for me. I end up sleeping late, waking up grumply and being tired all over again.

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To all my friends receiving your A level results tml, good luck ya all :)

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Monday, February 27, 2006

deleted my previous post, hardly normal of me to do that, i don't take back my words normally, not on my blog.

But that post was rather, juvenilish, and so teenageesh.

Still, i wonder how much energy i have inside of me, to sustain the love-lorn. I hope it all fades away soon. Never appreciative anyone aight.

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Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd never been
But all the things that you've seen Will slowly fade away

Oasis - don't look back in anger

Quotes from one of the bestest rock bands ever, Oasis. What better songs to thrash my angsty feelings, but to crash grangy, emotional rock out on my player.

Found on my msn : i missed you, i missed oasis, i missed everything quienessential, i missed life.

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Sunday, February 26, 2006

Albeit today's conversation, I was a momentarial happy person.
But as the conversations went on further, i realised i could be at most, second best.

If this is happiness to you, let happiness be.

Fleeting dreams, these heavyily laden hearts proclaims. Nothing but fleeting dreams waiting to be forgotten.

Tears are mere droplets of water, evaporating over the ages of time.

:')

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Saturday, February 25, 2006

Now, i don't give much air time to people on my blog often, REALLY. But this time around, i've just gotta help this babe out, whether she appreciates it a not i don't fuckin' care :)

Announcing contestant number Fabulous 3 for Beach Fiesta 2006 Ng Min Min.



N is for Naive
G is for Gorgeous

M is for d'most Mesmerizing In the Nation




SO. Vote for her by clicking on ta http://www.funkygrad.com/beachfiesta06
Pretend you're a nus grad or something if you're just another ass crack waiting for your A's.

Thank ya all :)

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Thursday, February 23, 2006

The Hong kong serial on Channel 8 at 9pm is beginnning to show reflections of my past. Relationships, tears, rain, disappointments,.

How come the good guy ( le bin ) wins eventually even if he's just a loser passer-by, who happens to be there the right moment at the right time, and not the bad guy ( wei ming ) who eventually repents? Life's such a whim.

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Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Someone i respected a lot gave me an insurmontable request today. Now i'm stuck to whether i should report this.

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Monday, February 20, 2006

repressed souls taking its toll.

Last night, i thought of something very symbolic to my life right now.
I tried very hard to pull myself out of the bunk to carry on my wee hour duty, only to find myself failing miserably. I tried hard to pull myself out, only to find myself reaching out for you to pull me out of bed.

It was you all along, you who would pull me out of my eternal (life's) slumber, nudging me gently ( knowing my fucking temper when i'm sleeping ). You wouldn't mind me screaming ( i really didn't mean it! ) , you would even take it in your stride. Occasionally even, you would tickle me, and i would yelp in laughter.

It was you all along, who has been my life's alarm clock, waking me when i most needed to. I haven't woken up yet, ashameably. But right now with my life's main nudge gone to the other side of life, i find myself constantly needing to egg myself on.

*a note to you
I write, only because my heart speaks. Please do not let this or any other writings be a source of botherdom to you.

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

Melanie

Nay, nev'er say I'll give this race up

God's gift, too precious to to give away.

Mid autumn,

I wonder where you are, how you have been doing, where you have been living.

Noticed the crisp brown leaves fall, almost painting my heart fading.

Maybe I'll see you again one day, maybe never again.

Irresistible smile, tender touches, your heart (said) it all.

Nearer to the past, further away from the distant future.

I miss you.

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Friday, February 17, 2006

graveyards, lambo, on the rock.

Headache.

Wonder why this girl asked if i was attached.

Didn't wonder why i paused and answered her back.

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Thursday, February 16, 2006

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go

Lifehouse - blind

Don't you think this song is just so awesome. It's so emotional filled, so, sad. It made me cry only because i could relate well to the song. Maybe all sad & emotional songs does right now .. but this one bites it.

Today wasn't a good day at all. Got my back ripped by a forklift, had my face ripped by my master sergent for failing to know my practical stuff enough to skim a pass in the practical. He made me felt so fucked up i felt i was the lowest being on earth.

Mentally, i penned my will, and wondering at the same time should i die one day, who would turn up for my funeral.

I'm just so sick of this life, this useless mourning, yearning, constant struggling with life. I want to end it all.


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Monday, February 13, 2006

So it's been approximately five months.
Five months since you made me yearning,
five months since you made my heart grew fonder.

It doesn't take a special occasion to remember,
but it does take a special moment sometimes to give that monumental thanks that special one deserves.

On this valentine' day,
I say my thanks to you Min min,

To the many wonderful memories we once had,
to the visions we once shared.

I wish you happiness, and joy.
Happy valentine's day to you =)

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Sunday, February 12, 2006

Rain, blurrifies the intense images, it blurs the boundaries.
It made me wonder where you are right now, how you are doing, whether you will be fine.

Tears, made me realised i've been a fool all this while.

Maybe i've been too consumed in the game of love that i've taken you for granted, but the reason of love still overules, doesnt it?

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Friday, February 10, 2006

I miss you nmm.
I've realised that for myself, soberity sucks big time. I know a lot about myself only when i'm intoxicated. And tonight, min, i missed you hell loads. Never mind the lack of reasoning, i'm still deeply in love with you.

And, friends, gah. Many friends are not your friends.

If i could exchange the gift of a devil's to the allowance of an angel's right now, i'd be gladly willing to go to hell.

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Monday, February 06, 2006

Encapsulated in the past was the future we used to hold.
Amd everytime i think about it i grow one strand older.

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Sunday, February 05, 2006

Back to work tommorrow. Gan puay sian. Work work work. Ah well, i'm a oily and greesy technician right now, don't know if that adds points to my sexiness. Any desperate housewives that fancy a skinny and oily technician, ring me.

SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN.

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Eventually, these memories surfaces, evoking deep emotions.
Eventually, they evidently serve more than just memories, they are the unsung pictures captured through time.
Eventually, you will be forgotten, and so would i be.
But eventually, when everything falls, i promise not to erase those memories we build over time, for ultimately, no one is certain of the future, only the past. And memory serves as an indicant to remind us that the past, has passed, and the future still holds.

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Friday, February 03, 2006

The lack of wisdom teeth could only meant three important things to my life right now

- I lack wisdom

- Saving of dental fees

- One less hurdle to scale for my posting to Changmai!!

Woopee.. When the doctor at SAFTI MI asked today if ihad my wisdom tooth extracted, i mumbled and mentioned that i did not have any grown ( as of yet anyway ). The x-ray visioned nothing out, which could only possibly mean that i'm spared of near immeminant pain.

And also meant that if i clear my Fitness indicator, i'm ( almost ) through to be posted to thailand! Thailand for a whole year! Wow, that's a whole load of bull i'm trying to pull on myself. But hey, what the fuck, i'll be glad to throw everything i have ( or do not have ) right at this point of time, and just run away to another no man's land. And to enjoy the delactable tom yam of course. Yipee.

Fuck singapore, fuck life in singapore, fuck shit, I wanna run off to thailand.

And run off with memories of you, i'll fuck everything, but the most ironic thing is that i'll miss you.

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006

I've often wondered, long and hard, why i have always seeked refuge amongst loud places during tumultious times. Loud places could include the friendly discos, clubs, bars, and even the abengish arcades. Sad times, unhappy times, heart-broken times, these decibal filled places had been my solace, and i wondered why.

Why the loud noises? Why not somewhere soothing, like the beach, or some where decent ( roll eyes at the sterotyping ) like the library?

Then, enigma struck me and i realised that these noises clouded my thoughts temperorarily, blinding my visions, numbing my feelings. Just like how drugs bring you for a second's high, and makes you forget things you want to.

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