Monday, January 30, 2006

so much for the story of my life eh.

Chinese new year's passed again. Thankfully i've survived it with minimal damages to my heart, and quite a major damage to my wallet. There were ribbings and jokes about her, that i was a playboy.. puppy love.. so fast.. and what not, but they were all in good spirit so i didn't really took much too heart. Gambling wise, sigh, no luck as usual. What's new eh. Gotta swear off this unlucky habit of mine, even if it was for a leisure purpose.

Here's to more bak kwa and angbaos.

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Friday, January 27, 2006

I don't want to go chinese new year visiting today. Can?

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Thursday, January 26, 2006

It takes only a moment of folly, to destroy a lifetime of brilliance.

Take it from me, I've fallen, and i'm still picking up the pieces.

See, the thing about life is not about lamenting, and quoting minmin, "not letting the past hold you back". You learn from life's lessons and not commit the same mistakes again, or you'll eventually suffer the consequences.

And you know, amidst frequenting Zouk, I've quite very often why this particular fella from my former workplace that was close to my age but i didn't know personally commited suicide opposite Zouk. Relationship problems? Heart-aches? Monatery issues in life? I sure know of an ugly boy who has the same problems as well, and he sure certainly hold the inclination to commit the very same folly as the guy abovementioned.

The combination's lethal. Drug, sex, rock n roll, booze. And what a good way to end it all by dying.

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Tuesday, January 24, 2006

As i headed for an early walk home at Jurong east Mrt today, someone approached me. I couldn't really catch her talking as i was on my ear sets, but i did not continue to walk on as i always do, on the account that

1) She was not wearing an office suit and thus have not the possibilty of being a pesky insurance agent who thinks all army boys are suckers for breasts.

2) She was extremely short, and thus i did not notice her till i felt something obstracting my path of walk.

3) She was ugly.

4) I thought she was my friend from somewhere.

5) She started speaking shit even though i could hear shit.

SO being the nice person that i was, i naturally let my ear phones down and listened to her preach, and prayed that it was not some holy communal shit / or that it was a commercial gimmick to tuck my heart into donating into some sick ass charity whilst part of it convienently goes to her pocket.

Unfortunately, option two surfaced. She was mentioning about some foriegn workers shit and saying that they are pitiful and what fucknot. And then, in her own words " these bangalas deserve pity and these ... maids .. deserve .... more than this... " and i was like " fuck you.... fuck these bangalas ... they... deserve ... to die... go ... home... " THEN, she popped the magical question, quoting her again " I know NS man very poor ( you are only 16 and you should know? ) , but these 10 $ can go a long way to save them! ". I gave her the most sympathetic look that i could have ever given, and told her that i did not have a single cent on me ( which was half the truth, cuz i only had like 1.30 after buying newpaper ), and she went on to expoit me by asking reverberatingly ( ten $ you don't have? reallly? don't bluff me .. Really? How about five $ ? Also dont have? )

" err ok.. tellyouwhatlayoucanvisitwww.home.org.sglaokbye "

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Monday, January 23, 2006

FUCK LA

IF YOU ALL DON"T FUCKING TRUST ME, THEN QUIT APPEARING FROM MY FUCKING LIFE.

NOT YOU MISS NG, NOT YOU EITHER MR AND MRS TAN.

NO NEED TO LAUNCH A FUCKING TIRADE AGAINST ME. I FUCKING HAD ENOUGH

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Saturday, January 21, 2006

M is for magic,
n
M is for miracles,
n
M is for miss, the M in i Miss you
n
M is for maybe, maybe one day you'll come back to me again.

How long does it take to break this heart-breaking spell.

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Friday, January 20, 2006

I miss you, like the desert miss the rain.

I've been missing you so much i'm falling ill.



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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

A photo can say a thousand things / Look at this photograph
it cant say the million things i wanna say / Every time I do it makes me laugh
A photo can capture the way we were But it cant capture the way we are / how the hell did it end that way

I miss that town I miss their faces You can’t erase You can’t replace it I miss it nowI can’t believe it So hard to stay Too hard to leave it If I could relive those days I know the one thing that would never change / Timing lost minutes and moments Yeah i might be lonely girl But im not afraid In a second it all comes right back to me No nothings forgotten now Yeah everythings saved

Look at this photograph Every time I do it makes me laugh / Cause im looking at your picture Cause its all i've got Maybe one day you and me will have One more shot

Ryan cabrera - photo / against / Nickelback - photograph collage.
Because sad love songs all sounds the same and have the same purposes, to make your sad heart even more miserable.

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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Take care aight? I'm talking to you, yes you. I hardly bare the courage to speak to your these days for fear of rejection ( the heart is only so hard ) , but i wish the best for you still. I miss you.

this fucking sucks.

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Sunday, January 15, 2006

Close to me, you were my lover.

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Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

-Green days


The rain came pouring again. Been a real load of a raining season. I was at my windows only just, to shut the windows tight to prevent water from drenching my room. I closed one, and pushed the other open wide, to see the pouring rain. Sarah was right to say that when a person's sad, every single bit of shit just have to remind me of the past. Like the rain, it reminded me of my field camp, how under the torrential rain i was thinking about you, telling myself not to give my miserable self up, only for you.

And along of the lines of today and the past few days, these few lines came into my mind.

Through the places that we used to go,
we sauntered, ribbing the other jokes only we knew.
Passed the familiar places many a time,
to built on the miseries of these memories.

First strangers, then lovers, then strangers.

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Monday, January 09, 2006

To all who managed to come down to home yesterday, roger&gab, almost the entire platoon 4, and your friends' friend, i give my sincerest thanks! Hope i'll have one some time along my bdae soon!

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Sunday, January 08, 2006

If only for a while,
you could make me smile,
you could make me whole again.

See that goofiness within me? It seems to be expanding as we follow the day go. Hope is desolute, unhappiness immenient. I can't die of suicide, but if sadness could kill, i'll die ( gratifully ) soon.


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Party @ Club Home 9/1/06 !

Be there tomorrow you guys! :)

Any enquires about ticket sales, gimme a call at my number!

See ya all there tml ! <3

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Friday, January 06, 2006

Tonight, let the whole world know that i'm the loneliest man alive.

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Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Whoever knew this love would ever come,
and whoever knew this love would ever go.

Whoever knew time stood still,
whenever i was with you.

Nobody could promise the end would ever be right,
but, maybe, so many wrongs could never be right.

So right now for you i'm knocking on heaven's door.
Begging i could come back again to your all.

Bad lyrics on a sentimental day. Usher's 8701 isn't making it any better. Rummaging through my C maths notes today. Made me sit back and slowly and painfully read through the very tinstle and bits of small 'nothings' you've done for me. Thank you for the very things you've doe for me.

Too painful, these memories, i wonder how you managed to chuck 'em out so fast, so soon.

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Sunday, January 01, 2006

New Year's passed and gone, just like that.

Party at Chong's was aiight as Randy Jackson would have put it. Pretty decent, but not exactly party - material, though the amount of drinks sure made up for it. Everyone was subtly high, and it was funny to see the drunks / the highs / and the KOs. Wasn't much of a party going on anyway, twas more of a socialising kinda day.

And myself? I think i drank enough to carry it forward to 2006 and 2007 ( as shawn and i concurred ). Wasn't drunk unfortunately ( or fortunately ? ) but me and shawn went on commenting on the chicks whose come and gone.

Andy and roger saw the fallen side of me within the night, as i was lamenting on how i was missing her, that much. After failing to edge me into contacting her, Andy took the darnest initiative to call her on her cell and went on to question her if she was with me. As usual, curt replies and whatnots and what you were doing there that night, i prefer not to know.

Thereafter, just laid back and tried unsuccessfully to sleep it out. 12 hours after, here i am, blogging my sad life away.

I need something this year to keep me going, hopefully something right would be on the way.

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