Monday, April 18, 2005

However do you gratify someone enough? Never as simple as a toddler, who seems so desired to giggle and laugh, and is so easily amused by tiny tweaks of actions.The moral of the story to be learn is to count your blessings, i suppose.

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Saturday, April 16, 2005

There'll always be so much room for regrets, so much space for failure, so much buckets to hold the tears.

But i want more time for repent.

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Monday, April 11, 2005

I always pray that after every heavy storm, there'll be a glimpse of hope still, like the mystical pot of gold over the rainbow.

Could we ignite the fire again? But this time with concrete woodstock.

Back to you
It's always back to you.

Listening to John mayers-Back to you

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Saturday, April 09, 2005

I need to grow.

I can't bare to have the 2 seconds miserable quarrels. And re-direct my anger to something much more productive ( quotes off anger management ).

I say the nastiest things when i'm screwed, baby, and i'm sorry. But sometimes i don't get many things in life.

Listening to: Jim brickman and Martina mcbride right now, and nursing a swollen eye. Fuck you ahbengs. Ugly martianic creatures.

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Thursday, April 07, 2005

Its ironic, how i hate people who's so moooody the whole damm day. I mean shouldn't blogs be all lively exciting vibrant WoRzX. I was just kidding. And i'm about to grouse again.

I'm got a @$#$@ headache.
CXXXBXX.

And i'm so pissed with myself. Couldn't believe she had such influence in her so much so that i couldn't force get myself to work today. Left after an official 15 mins in the office cuz i felt damm fucked up and edgy after seeing her. AND HER SLUTTY CHEEBYE friend. Sorry. Her friend.

But its all good not to worry. As soon as i receive my pay, it is bye bye cheebyes, and HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO... HK/korea/bangkok/india/pakistan/timbaktu ::::)))))))

BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBEYE
3nights bangkok $225.. SOCHEAP

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Wednesday, April 06, 2005

why can't anyone see
i just wanna live
Don't care what the others say

- good charlotte ( i just wanna live )

i'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
i don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you

i've
become so numb
i can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
i'm becoming this
all i want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

-linkin park ( numb )

There is an unknown error in wanting to inhale the incoming carbon monoxide. It has never been more refreshing.

Today morning, the most surreal dream ( and it was coloured too! ) shocked the shit out of me. I was walloping the fuck off her, whilst she was just putting a brave front not even whimping. Thankfully, stupid annonymous calls woke me up.

I tell myself i can't be more fucking bothered anymore. Go listen to your friends, ignore me. But why the tao suan when i can't be any more bothered? I'm such a walking contridiction. But i'm trying my best to be like her, like how easy it is for her to toggle in between love/ and falling outta love, like how easy it is changing the status bar of friendster from " in a relationship - to single ".

Am i a distant lover, or a close friend?

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Monday, April 04, 2005

That's it.
No more commitments. I'm fucking sick of it.
Calling before reporting for sick/leave.
Being pretentious.
Adhering to dumb fuck rules.

I'm sailing off to the other side of the world once i'm getting my pay.
I'm putting up an anger again, so what?
I really had enough.

I'd never been the sort to follow by the rules.
Might wanna say " look where that has landed you "
I say fuck you and fuck off.
I don't care dipshit to what you say.
Not a fuckin' shit.

I'll be off for a stint,
to unload my emotional burdens.
Not give a flyin fuck to anyone.
And i'll have the liberty to think of you, occasionally.

How wonderful.

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{xoxo}

Friday, April 01, 2005

My unintended.
Somehow, i don't know.
Wouldn't know.

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