Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Was flipping through the storage area of my kitchen for tupperware, found some tumbler or meal boxes from my kindergarden. What nostalgia!! Muaha, i never knew they even existed till my dad told me in front of darl that it was the box to put my meals back when i was a lil toddler with some semblance of intellegence.

Today was rather nice, was planning to pack some sorta salad for mi darling. Bought all the stuff for the salad making already, when she came over to my house ( with my dad ard ). So being da excellente cook she is, i letted her do the cooking. HAHA. Sorry darl, hope you had fun! I certainly did. *snigger.

Ok, i'm off to bintan to maximise my use of the company's sponsered voucher tml. Hope/pray no earthquakes.

And i want to travel to three different continents before i enlist into ARRRRRRR MEEEEE.
Or at else that's my plan.

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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

3 months down the road.
Its two strangers again.

Was,
Two complete strangers, driven by a whirlwind of unintentional fate.
Serendipity!

3 months down the road,
the separation of life paths.
Irony.

How irony, and fate some times go hand in hand so well.

Yet,
if we were,
to live for
Forever.

What more is temporal.

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Friday, March 25, 2005

I need new stuff.
Clothes, shoes, specs. STYLE.

I need STYLE. I don't have one yet. BAD.

But first i need cha-cha-chaaaaachink. CASH.

I don't have CASH.

BAD.

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Thursday, March 24, 2005

My mind filled with thoughts of Thee.

How's she's everything to me, and how much i love her.

But when is she ever gonna say she loves me.

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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Blogger irks the fuck out of me. And so do many nitty gritty issues in life. But fuck them. I can't be bothered. Anyway, am contemplating a shift to livejournal soon because blogger takes a piss ass long time to load.

What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it,
What good is a love if you're too scared to choose it,
If you're heart is beating, then it's for a reason, girl,
If you're not willing to start, what good is a heart?

I'm struggling even at the age of 19, to piece a proper sentence together without any grammatical error whatsoever. Cuz my thoughts are just too distorted, and so are my writings.

I hate this blog too much. It's becoming a dungeon of bad memories. I want to open a newer one soon.

So much for randomness. They haven't read mine.

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Monday, March 21, 2005

Don't need no minkblinks, don't need no shit.

Need panadol + honey water NOW.
Got headache + fever.

And i've just passed my chance to redeem a free chalet.

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It always happens. Just as i'm about to have a sudden spark of inspiration to blog, nonsensical thoughts rushes in and destroys it all.

Im 19. 19, with no achivements to my credit, aimless in life, and burdened with an incessant trench of surmounting debt. I hate my * debts no doubt, but its all in the cycle of life, or karma as they call it. When comes around goes around. But hey, i thank God she came into my life. She's been changing my life upside down ( in a good manner of course ) , and she's really been truly understanding to my shit and baring the brunt of my * foul temper.

And i've come to realised that at 19, i've grown. Grown to see the ugly side of the human life, grown to be in contact with the ugly side of the human life, and truly, to grow. Even as me and caine were laughing at the transitions in life ( what's in, who's in etc ) , i couldn't help to think and ponder how many paths/ transitions in life i must go through before - before what, i really dunno.

Well, i must go now, a guilty and tormenting sleep to enjoy, and a sinful free trip to the chalets beckons. Ciaos.

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Friday, March 18, 2005

Pardon me for the numerous emo posts.

But i'm just so fuckin sad.

I feel so lost.

I want to blame you, but I'm the one to blame.

For i'm the one who gave it up, not you.

Because baby girl, you've given me everything i've ever wanted, but not your heart.

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Thursday, March 17, 2005

&i was dying inside to hold you
i couldn't believe what i felt for you
dying inside i was dying inside
but i couldn't bring myself to touch you

Its amazing how much the convayance of emotions songs could bring. Least to say, i'm feeling all damm fucked up. F" you not you trying, f" you for not lovin' again, f" you for not wanting to turn back and run to me to say you do, again. I hate you.

But i'm so f ing in luv with you.

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So this is how forever should be.
temporal.
so quotes of the mouth.
that forever i once breathe
becuz i've never knew someone like you
I've never wanna let go.

I'd wish you'd turn your back and say the words
the words of forever.
You never did, never had.

And i don't blame you.

Because forever is temporal.

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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

And I want to get free
Talk to me I can fear you falling
And I won't tempt to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone
And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling

Goo goo dolls-here is gone

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Monday, March 14, 2005

Inspired by two of the recent books i've read lately ( digital fortress, brethen ), i've decided to quote an extract off a particular ameteur writer. Bare with his royal boring(ness).

"And so as soon as he trudged drearly home, Mike slumped onto the computer chair. The chair which have supported the weight of the thousands and one burden. Burdens of a loser of course. Aged twenty-seven, and armed with the certificate of accountancy. Not much to be bragging about in the small tinstletown of Bristol.He was never successful as a teen, never quite circling round the peculiarity of the mc squares, nor was the allure of hydroxidebiocarbonate especially erotic.

Twenty years down the roads of failure, he was very much still the same loser he was back then. A nobody. Today, the three hundred pages of the law journal was the most important moment of his career as a legal sect. Or so thought Jake lesson, his immediate supervisor. Get it down and be done in a jiffy, sonny, the courts need it. Yes, the courts. The fucking courts.

Even so, life was not lost. Or maybe the irony of life was never lost on him. He had a head-turning beauty with him. The girl of every other guy's dream. The scholar ( straight A's? God, you SHOULD meet my son sometimes.. ) and of course, the girl of his life.

Yet, he never failed so despaired before. "

Right, i'm too tired to type the rest of the book out. Maybe some other day i shall. Go find it in stores if you thought the book was good ( Losers inc ). I'm sleepy and bored. Nights all.

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Saturday, March 12, 2005

The fragility of life, its all so apparent. And ironic.
Went over to starhub to follow minmin over to NUS, first thing sam loel ( my sup ) said when he saw me was that an accuaqantince of mine ( i've only met him once actually ) had commited suicide near zouk. It was nerve-shattering, and sad, and a fella only 21, so young, just broke the hearts of the people round him.
Over at lunch, the feeling only started sinking in, and playing at the audio booth at a CD shop was Heaven knows. I thought god was making one heck of a joke. Left me depressed and thinking about it the entire day.
Sigh.
Though i never knew you, Zon, rest in peace.

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Thursday, March 10, 2005

I'm officially typing this without my specs right now, so do pardon me if you spot any annoying grammatical errors. Why am i typing without my specs you might ask. It is due to the fact that i am actually applying nose blackhead remover cream on my horribly speckled nose via prescription off my lover cum beautician ( who tortured me this morning with her set of beautifying, and yet suicidial set of menacing facial tools ). And yet, it is her whose involved in more ways than one of my screwed up life.

She's the official lover and girlfriend, and the unofficial tutor, councillor, beautician, office partner with the secret liason ( heh ), and soon i hope, business partners. She's everything to me right now.

Along the way home from work today, she was asking me what love was, and i was thinking love was ( from an optimist point of view ) that you spend the rest of your next 80 ( 60 if you smoke, drink, gamble ) loving over and over again the very person the fell in love with aeons ago. How sweet. Now of course, the pessimistic point of view would obviously be that you stare at the same clown who digs his/her nose, don't shave armpit hair, burps, farts, have really bad BO ro bad breathe, for the next 60 odd years ( terms and conditions apply ). So what is love, really?

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Sunday, March 06, 2005

It's back to the basics.

Econs, C maths, geog. Dunno if i can do it, but a few hours of reading a day shall produce marvellous miracles. Yes. Hiphiphurray. Don't wanna waste my damm life revelling around damm starhub no more. Plus of course, my driving test of course, before i submit my self to the fuckin' nation.

Degree in business ( marketing ) SIM : 32k
Degree in marketing SIC : 15k
Degree in law SIC: 5k

My life: 0

I feel so fucked, i'm feeling so damm screwedup.

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Friday, March 04, 2005

Self indulgence blog.

I love it when my hair goes under the snippers. Snip, snap, as the salon lady gently caress the hair. With such volume, such audacity! Oh! Such is the sinful orgasm. Time for a lovely session with the salon.

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Thursday, March 03, 2005

Love you to bits and pieces baby girl ;) for everything you've done for my birthday, for the wonderful food you've made, the time you've sacrifice, everytime.

I love you minmin, :)
Good luck for tomorrow dearie,be seeing you in a couple of hours.

Rest of you folks, good luck for the A's tomorrow too ;)

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Tuesday, March 01, 2005

It's 5 mins to my bdae! Haha :))

Thanks to all you guys for your birthday wishes. And good luck for your A level collection this friday!

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