Friday, December 31, 2004

Shan't do a recap of 2004, everything just didn't fall into pieces as i hope it would.

mm. on a brighter side, new years eve was wicked,and the afternoon party @ RAV for the starhubbers nearly got everyone spent. :) haha! It was rather halirious cuz after the party, four guys, and i do meant four seh guys, patronised the mango store in raffles city ( together with the ladies ), albeit stupid laughters, random shouts etc. It was then we headed for this place in grandlink sq to enjoy some nice shit food.

Back into the twilight, went on to WZ's party, more drinks ahead. And when i mean drinks, i do mean more than 20 bottles of untainted pure alcoholic waiting to be wasted. And boy, did people get wasted huh. :) 3/4 people were left drunk/wasted/thrashed, only at the beginning of twilight, as i sat at one corner musing at the funny shit people do when they're drunk ( and probably nursing the fucking afternoon hangover. ) A bit of catching up, good o truth or dare, chilling into the dawn. Back home.

Fucking headache. Arghhhhhhhhhh.


Happy new years guys. Off for another gathering now.


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Wednesday, December 29, 2004

okays. Shall start off with my deepest sympathy to the victimes of the tidal waves, may god bless you all in heaven.

Next off, really glad to see starhub ( my organisation ) pooling in every bit of help to assist the poor flood victimes. :) Well done guys.

Urm, ok, what else do i have to blog, urm.. oh ya.. reached my 40 sales target for the mth! YES :) good shit there. However, note that CPF deduction is off 20% of your commison as well as salary, so knn.

And lastly yes, new years coming! no, not coming as in coming, but coming! yes. good shit there again. Lotsa fun shit lined up tml. Have a great new years ahead guys, god bless.

Peng cheng,signing off for the year 2004 with my famous lucky red boxers which have graced the screen of the literature hall 1 of pioneer junior college.

God bless guys. :)


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Monday, December 27, 2004

Random rantings ( not in any chronological order )

- car accidents, 3cars in an unfortunate collision. 5 metre away, same scenerio ( CTE this afternoon ). Bumper mangled, 4 folks trapped :(

-Quiet workplace till evening where it was jam packed.

-Angeline being the 15 thousand person to say that my blog is depressive. I beg to differ. My blog is suicidial.

-urm, i miss you? :) heh.

-yeah i miss you :) double smileys.


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Sunday, December 26, 2004

Introducing boys and girls- the grammy award winning band

Green day-Boulevard of broken dreams


I walk a lonely road
The only one that
I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleepsand I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk aloneI walk alone I walk aloneI walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...My shadow's the only one that walks beside me

My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ahAh-ah, Ah-ahI walk aloneI walk a...
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...



P.s did you know that the song ocean avenue first started out as ocean boulevard? Betcha didn't know that.


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Saturday, December 25, 2004

I'm reminded of the non-existent love that remained lingering bitterly in my mind, those small memorable superficial incidences which preceeded over what i finally realised was true-love.

I can't stop listening to bitter-sweet love songs now as such, ( not your fault of course ) but only because they were the tiny remnants of the "love" that we "shared". I can't stop weeping at nottinghill, can't stop replaying ronan keating's tracks, can't help re-reading the letters you once wrote to me, because i was once the naive fool that believed that love was about the wonderful right to call the other "dear", to share time watching silly movies, and of course, love was all about making out too. I knew zilch what love consisted of.

But right now i figured, love is a little more complicated than i thought.

Pardon me for the bitterness Santa, i'm still a little adolescent trying to find out his identity. I still want YOUR present you good'o fatty, and yes, i still want to believe in love once more.


If you seen me walking down the street
Staring at the sky
And draggin my two feet
You just pass me by
It still makes me cry


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Thursday, December 23, 2004

Ryan cabera- true



I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me

you might thinkI don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to yoummmm

I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling fast

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
it's time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

you don't knowwhat you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you meant me!

[Chorus]I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing thats trueso I will not hideits time to try anything to be with youall my life I've waited
this is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

[chorus]I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing thats true
so I will not hideits time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

specially for you-know-who :)


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Dearest Santa, these are what i want for christmuss this year.

- My bills/debts to be settled
- My friends to be happy
- My parents to be happy
- > 40 sales. haha :) going close!

- She/her :) ))))))

~all i want for christmas is youuuu

Merry christmas everyone! May all your wishes come true.



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Tuesday, December 21, 2004

My normal day in life.

Wake up.
Feeling all body achy, sleepy.
Phlegmy. Spits phlegm out. Check phlegm for colour.
Clicks on net to check on score/neopets/journal/friendsjournal.
Bath.
Trudges unwillingly to work.
Am late for half an hour already, but still, go get lunch. Muaha.
Waste the afternoon away talking/buying food/clicking on potential customers then laugh at their names/ with Ms cheryl chew aka my working neighbour.
Waste the afternoon away by disturbing my supervisor Ms woon, who in turn screams and scolds me for the lack of office professionalism, but is instead, being severly disturbed in returned. :D
Night falls and the work floor is JAMMED PACKED. A flutter of the telephone dial, socialising, more dialing remembering in mind than > 40 sales = 20$ for each sales >40 sales = 20$ for each sales >40 sales =20$ for each sales...
Bid adieu to work. Spots a few antics by the clowning supervisors. Laughs out loud!
Back home via 67 with Ms tai tai chew.
Net.
Sleep.

I've been doing a lot of self reflection lately, about the past, about the present, about the future. How friendship botherlines on the absudity, how my friendships botherline on the absurdity. My character, it sorely yearns to be rectified. And more than often, the future is a bleak to me right now, my destiny's been put on hold ( or was there ever even a pause button ), my wishes diminishing by the day as i summoned courage and maturity to tell myself that these dreams of mine are more or less invalid anymore the day my life took me for a spin.


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Monday, December 20, 2004

Do I ever cross your mind anytime
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me
Do I ever cross your mind anytime
I miss you.


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Saturday, December 18, 2004

I love chinablack. No two ways about it. Now there's another reason to love it more. Attic bar plays great top 40/ contemporary music to groove to.

Last night whilst i was there, this familiar tune came along on the stereo system over Attic bar, which went

" Am i too happy .. & do i make you want me.. "

Memories of a broken mind, i want that song on my playlist now.



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Friday, December 17, 2004

Infatuated :) :) :)
Triple smiley for a happy boy.
Don't tell you who though. HEH.

I really hope this doesn't turn out to be one of my cute little college crushes. Double HEH.

Good night :)


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Thursday, December 16, 2004

They say no business after office hours, ahh, but who can resist gossiping about the latest shits in the company aight.

I've learned quite a bit after starhub, learned about backstabbing, learned about sales-stealing ( ugly people ) etc.

And i learned that karma do exist like woon ( my supervisor ) said. For every action you will reap the very seeds you sow. And i am indeed reaping the very dire consequences right this moment.

But its alright, my buddy in starhub Mr melvin once said : " Its good to know what's going on, but its best not to get into the shit ". Simple philosophy, and i cannot agree any further.

Anyway, PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH. Important lesson in life, don't go round preaching shit load of fuck if you can even keep to the very shit that you fuckin said.


Woon asked today ( out of humour ) if my parents cried when they gave birth to me.
The irony.


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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

It's about finding myself once again.

Lyrics from bridget jones' diary
-So much hurt so much pain takes a while to regain what is lost inside


My work place is comparatively brightened up by the prospects of hottiesss :) awesommee. Though it'll only meant more communication on the work floor, and less communication online with the customer.
Hmm. Good exchange if you ask me. HAHA.


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Monday, December 13, 2004

Hello civilisation! Away from the hustle and bustle of the city for 4 days was a break much needed indeed. No computers, no.. no.. ok la that was more or less my escapade from modernity laa. Family chalet was fun! :) Endless nights of watching late night soccer ( no scv at home for me ), late night fishing catching nothing, and lots of catching up with family members who were entirely&sincerely discreet in asking " so what's your plan next " instead of " what the fuck la how stupid can you get to be kicked out of the fucked up school instead of your beloved cousins who are either in ac/rj/ etc". Love my family :)

Ahh. The serenity of it all. And i caught meteor rain whilst out fishing! :) Another stupid smiley for me. Either that or the stars decided to move really quickly. Tricky stars.

Peace out to all, its back to work, work, work.

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Friday, December 10, 2004

HOME ALONE.

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Friday, December 03, 2004

now my dad thinks i'm a smoker. Great.


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