Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Someday we'll know, why i wasn't meant for you.

I know i ain't suppose to be on the comp.
I know i should be on my books
I know i should be putting in much more effort
But there's a limit to how much you can stretch me.

Goodness knows wtf i have been doing this year again. I saw my schedule for the exams and noted that i had two days to attend for history. Paper 1 and paper 2. My first reaction was like wtf i have to attend two papers i'm not intending to write a fuck on. The second one was pretty brilliant, like WTF is paper 1, and WTF is paper 2 huh.

Thank goodness for me i know what paper 1,2,3 for econs is, and paper 1,5,8 for lit is. I think.

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Monday, September 27, 2004

Here's a special one :)

To: Sarah

Happy 17th birthday! Sorry i really forgotten about your birthday this time ard ( you know i'd always had a bad memory ) buttttt a present shall be along the wayy to compensate for my forgetfulness. Hope everything will go fine for you and your darling always and may your birthday celebrations be an unforgettable one cuz you made mine a nice one too :)

Happy birthday!

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Sunday, September 26, 2004

Tag-board's out, doodling's in! Come graffitise my doodle board pweety please. And the usual rule follows that there should no annoymous tags as usual please, if you want to be heard, you should at least tell me who you are.

Anyhow, the magical dust's settled, and though i'm pretty pissed at missing out on ming's dinner ( only becuz i knew it would be going to be a good spread ), catching up with them later on was darn fine. And the games led to some pretty silly actions if you ask me muahaha.

Black was a riot. Absolute riot. I gotta fcuking resolute to stop giving silly grins whenever i see something silly (grins) on the floor, and to stop laughing unnessarryily. BUT it was fcuking funny la. Whoever plays XIAO WEI?!!! And something interesting did occur amidst the commotion, though i'm not gonna post. Ask, and i will fulfill your curiosity.

Its a week to the promos. To hell with my history already, 10 marks / 100 marks for your mids won't do you any good even if you ace it in the promos. Econs and literature shall be my pure base for survival, withstanding the fact that there will be NO re-entry ( you fucking stupid #$@$ principal ).

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Saturday, September 25, 2004

Canipleasehaveyouagaintonight:)

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Friday, September 24, 2004

Song: This is my composition ( sang to the tune of usher's my confession )

This is my composition
Just when i thought i had done all the work could have done
my teacher came to say
She's got one more essay on the way
Fxxx! There goes my conclusion!

Damm i should have know it
what to do
i need to stay back in school
to finish up my composition.

I just received a telephone call ( call )
My friends tell me they need my all ( all )
Man i'm sorry
I dunno what to do
but to finish up my composition.

Teacher here is my composition

P.s all these were written within the spam of 5 mins during GP. Cheers to better inspirational grab

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Thursday, September 23, 2004

And do as adversaries do in law, - Strive mightily, but eat and drink as friends. - William Shakespeare

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I feel i've differed a lot to when i was a lot younger. I've changed. I've given up a lot of my principles, a sum of my intergrity and my basic right for living has gone off to the drain to rot.

When we were a lot younger,
we were dumb and stupid
when we grew a bit older,
circumstance forces us to become dumb and stupid.

Or maybe its just me.

I'm growing, and learning, and learning that growing takes a lot more than just learning how to grow. Its about growing to learn how to grow.

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I learn a lot watching The apprentice. And today, i learnt an important lesson in life, which i often neglect with my soft-heartedness.


Business will always be business, friends will be friends. Business and friends never mix.

How apt. Donald Trump that willy fox really deserves his gold.

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Monday, September 20, 2004

Grant me temporal, fuck, no, make that a permanent one damm it, RELIEF god. You know how i so need it. It seems like everything in life's crumbling down, everything's meaningless in this bleak whirlpool of insanity. Life's about suffering in internal misery, again, and again, and again, and again, and fucking again. I'm losing myself. PLEASE. Stop all this shit. Even i'm sick shit of my laments.

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Sunday, September 19, 2004

Vanessa Williams- Colour of the wind


You think I’m an ignorant savage
And you’ve been so many places
I guess it must be so
But still I cannot see
If the savage one is me
How can there be so much that you don’t know?
You don’t know...

You think you own whatever land you land on
The earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know ev’ry rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name

You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a strange
You’ll learn things you never knew you never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sun-sweet berries of the earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once, never wonder what they’re worth

The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle, in a hoop that never end

How high does the sycamore grow
If you cut it down, then you’ll never know

And you’ll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
For whether we are white or copper-skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountain
Need to paint with all the colours of the wind
You can own the earth and still
All you’ll own is earth until
You can paint with all the colours of the wind

And i promise you, that this won't eventually turn out to becoming one lyrics storage webpage, just that songs have been my sole point of solace right now, the chain of events going through my life.

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Friday, September 17, 2004

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect


I'm sorry dad. And mum. For all the pain that i've caused.

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Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Contemplative;my life

Anxiety;the consequences of my actions

Clueless;my life, and my motivation for living

Distantly hopeful;year end results if i mug

Praying;that all my troubles will go away.



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Sunday, September 12, 2004

I wonder,
if i would ever meet a girl
a girl i can call her mine
someone i will never say goodbye
give her the world give her the sky
Till the end of time
She'll always be mine.

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So much chaos, so much trouble. The tag-board's gotta go off temporarily till an amiable solution is found.

To all you anonymous idiots, if you ever felt i owe you something this life, or the past for that matter, APPROACH ME PERSONALLy. No need to leave stupid anonymous tags which serves no purpose.

Theratics not withstanding, its gonna be a month of pure torture. No more late nights, lazy afternoons. Its books, and more books.

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Saturday, September 11, 2004

Tony rich project-Nobody knows it but me

I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closing more everyday
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown, I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is tumbling down
I can say it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

Chorus:
The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinking about
The love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling at night and
Nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screaming at night as if
I thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can you get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle
It's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say
Just how I feel
A million years from now you know
I'll be loving you still
Chorus:
The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinking about
The love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

Tomorrow morning I'm hitting
The dusty road
Gonna find you wherever
Ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope
You come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely...

I swore i nearly fucking cried when i heard this song. :( hur.

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Wednesday, September 08, 2004

These recurring emotional anguish and torment, I can't seem to shake them all off. Fuck all my sleepless nights and all the restlessness brought about. If fuck's the only word i could explain for all the agony that's been going through, i'd say my life's fucked-up.


Anonymous 1&2, i care not two hoods of you, but i simply hate dissers who have no guts to put down the names that your parents dutifully given to you. Or are you too ashamed of yourselves.

Food for thoughts about yourselves.

1) Your names, quite obviously, are you too ashamed of it. I pity your parents.
2) You claim you place no interest and you don't exactly take me seriously. So why the interest in my blogger? It's my own space, and i do what i like with it. And if you were not so bored to tag so frequent on my blog and notice my daily life, you would know i am a quasimodo rugger. If you think yourselves stronger and cuter and whatever, tell me who you are, as i said i would give a fair judgement.
3) Bombastic words does not "cue the audience to clap" either.
4) Finally,my blog's my own private space. If you're unhappy with any parts of it, fuck off.




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Kelly Clarkson-Break away


Grew up in a small town,
And when the rain would fall down,
I'd just stare out my window.
Dreaming of what could be,
And if I'd end up happy,
I would pray.

Try not to reach out,
But when I tried to speak out,
Felt like no-one could hear me.
Wanted to belong here,
But something felt so wrong here.
So I'd pray,
I could break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.

Wanna feel the warm breeze,
Sleep under a palm tree,
Feel the rush of the ocean,
Get onboard a fast train,
Travel on a jetplane,
Faraway, and break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I've gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.

Buildings with a 100 floors,
Swinging aroundrevolving doors,
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me.
But I gotta keep moving on moving on,
Fly away, break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
Tho its not easy to tell you goodbye.
Gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget the place I come from.
I've gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.


Fuck you bastards who try to ruin my life.

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Sunday, September 05, 2004

Tong hen wo zhi zi.

Dui bu qi.

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Friday, September 03, 2004

This perennial under-achiever, clueless under the daunting skies; only seeking that motivation to move on. Oh where can i find a moment of solace, for me to weep openly at my life's follies.

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Thursday, September 02, 2004

I never knew i was the " tall guy who never came to class, skipped school like he owned the school, never handed in work, failed his promos, slacker " But its cool anytheways to hold a nice reputation that you can fondly remember when time passes. :)




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