Monday, August 30, 2004

To my self proclaimed Gay partner in sch CAINE NG YUAN PENG Happy sweet eighteen! :) Congrats on NOT having to use my ID anymore to enter any clubs ( as much as i know you hate it fuck you _|_ ) Cheers to the years of friendship and food sharing and may all your wishes COME true. (especially the present one right hur hur )

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Sunday, August 29, 2004

Anyone game for a nice session of marimba cha cha? ;)

Let's go!

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more

Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have the magic technique
When we sway I go weak

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have the magic technique
When we sway I go weak

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
You know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now

Cha cha cha!

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Thursday, August 26, 2004

Thanks all you guys for your concern. :)

I hate the hospital. Kinda dumb cuz no one does. But when i stepped into the hospital to visit my dad today, everything just put me off. The hospital's strangely, overly sterile, even to the extend of being asninely sterile. yucks. And the hospital room's filled with people either gasping for air, staring blankly into space, or just idling around.

Sometimes I feel
Like I am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of possibility
However it may roll
Give it a spin
See if you can somehow factor in
You know theres always more than one way
To say exactly what you mean to say

Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could Ihave ever been so blind
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
Never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad than it's time you woke up too

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Monday, August 23, 2004

And the realisation sets in,
that my dad's in hospital.
The feeling slowly sinks in,
bit by bit.
i pray to God that you'll be ok.
i really do.
As much as i always say i hate you
i still love you.
i know i've been nothing but a wastrel,
a fool.
I promise you this time around i'll work hard.
Harder as i can be
not to disappoint you,
not to put off your health in worser shape.
Lord God bless my dad and my family with all your might.

The room's filled with silence, and cold.

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Sunday, August 22, 2004

Side-tracking to friendster, i dunno if it's just me, or do you occasionally receive complimentary messages from people you never know, telling you how handsome you are and wanting to be your friend. I just got one.

From: KEVIN

u look yandao. care add me?
k1608@hotmail.com

This one ard being the THIRD time i've received such a message from a guy. URGH

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Saturday, August 21, 2004

For now, the fervour for the less important matters in life shall be placed on hold, albeit temporarily. These speck of vapour, trival issues, as aptly described by Athena, would be dutifully replaced by the more crucial matters in life. Books, notes, teachers, shall be my best of friends for the next 40 days. Cheer me on now guys.


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Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Qualms. They revolve all around me. Fucking Coach that really made my nerves uneasy today. I can (sorta) still stand people calling me a "slowlearner", "not concentrating" but not give me an accusatory comment about how the "other teachers are commenting about you" FUCK YOU. You dont even fucking know my name. I am not "number 21" for your mom's sake, hasn't she ever taught you the importance of a person's name you cheena high freak. ARGHHHH

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Tuesday, August 17, 2004

How many times have we told ourselves, this one's the special one, the one we're gonna be with for eternity? And how many of these well-wishes never truly materialised? Because of some dumb inexplicable reasons we let the future escape like sand escape from the palms of our hands. Lies, betrayal, lack of commitment and what nots, they've begun to form this terrible cover of cynicism over me. I've lose faith, and as a certain person once said, we grow to become jaded and changed people from what we previously once were.

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Monday, August 16, 2004

I fucking hate being snubbed. Bah.

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Thursday, August 12, 2004

I, XXX , solemnly affirm,

Not to look so solemn in the swearing in. Not to laugh at my good friend Mah Mah Tan even though he's busy looking at his FXXking nails when i'm doing the swearing ( oh hey, swearing's another constitution i gotta look into ) , not to crack any jokes about the ugly looking wives of my carboard ( or was it cabinet ) ministers.

Not to be so dumb to forget my oh-so-impt swearing in words, not to put down my hands, not to ogle at the pweeeety army girl even though her skirt is so damm short. Not to laugh at the new line up- ( wtf is a Minister mentor, you think this is chinese movie isit huh SHIFU ) and to please let the two jokers behind me be at ease even though they looked like idiots matching in with their shirts moving left and right.

I having been appointed to the office of misers ( erm i mean ministers ) , will then bear true fats to Sinagapore , and do my best to serve the consitutions of singapore.

Good night.

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Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Sugar ray 14.59

She falls apart by herself
No ones there to talk or understand
Feels sustained, dries here eyes
Finds herself, opens the door inside
People see right through you
Everyone who knew you well

Falls apart, might as well
Day is long and nothing is wasteful

Runaway runaway
(runaway runaway)
Hold, hold you but your going away
Runaway runaway
(runaway runaway)
(Want)
Hold (Want) you tomorrow but your leaving today

You walk along by yourself
There's no sound, nothing is changing
Been gone away, left you there
Emptiness is nothing you can't share
All those words that hurt you
More than you would let it show
Comes apart, by yourself
All is well and everything is wasted

Sometimes we'll feel around and this dance instead can't be down
All the sound of me on my own
Any sound of me again it's time away surround around a friend
I know where I know where no where to runaway

She falls apart, no one there
Hold her hand, it seems to disappear
Falls apart, might as well
Day is long and nothing is wasted

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Monday, August 09, 2004

Ms chua was right on with her words, that day at ptm. She told me my life was akin a gamble, the stake being my life. Placing one huge big stake at just one particular event in life, and pray for the best outcome. I think that's so like me really. I never strived for what i desired, leaving me to always being second fiddle in the years that has past. Life's a tragedy right now, even if i try to smile and tell myself everything's ok. I'm plagued with problems i never should have gotten myself into. Them "adult" problems Mr koh once said it. Maybe its all too late for regrets. 50 more days to the promos and counting. Am i prepared? I doubt it.

The entire chain of events, sinisterly deja vu. Start of year, hopes renewed, problems, bad grades, disappointed parents, frustration, suicidal tendencies.

How tainted, that infectious rabid scar inside me screams. No longer the innocent child that existed with the beautiful smile, what's left's just the remnant that's being stubbornly cling onto.







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Saturday, August 07, 2004

Amidst all confusion, all uncertainty;

I mused at the rampant juvenile follies.

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Thursday, August 05, 2004

Koped this off my meimei's web. THANKS! :) Bored and since i'm having a bad hair day ( bad hairdresser. BAD! ) and i need something to blog about just for the sake of blogging so here is some information you never knew about me.




01. My name is -- Tan peng cheng
02. I may seem -- dao
03. I'm really -- craver. lovable.
04. People who know me think -- i'm spastic.literally. DAMM YOU!
05. If you knew me you'd -- love me many many ok :)
06. Sometimes I feel -- errr.. punching you cuz this question is out of point.
07. In the morning I -- marikita
08. I like to sleep -- ANYTIME, ANYWHERE :D
09. If I could be doing anything right now I would be -- counting money.
10. Money is -- AH! number 9 just answered this question didnt it.
11. One thing I wish I had is -- money many.
12. One thing I have that I wish I didn't -- Pimples. :(
13. All you need is -- money
14. All I need is -- huh. more money?
15. If I had one wish it would be -- to turn back time. ( quoted off sheryl's answer, i thought it's pretty romantic. )
16. Love is -- unexplainable. extraordinary.
17. My body is -- beanpolish.
18. If an angel flew into my window at night Iwould -- laugh cuz the devil resides.
19. If a demon crashed into my window at night I would -- laugh too cuz THE demon is in the house. It'll probably shiver away and whimper and die.
20. If I could see one person right now it would be -- The angel maybe.
21. Something I want but I don't really need is -- Beauty products. HAHAHA.22. Something I need but I don't really want is -- Love.
23. I live for -- money
24. I dare you all to --give me $$
25. I am afraid of -- failing.
26. It makes me angry when -- people question my intergrity.
27. It makes me happy when -- someone unexpectedly suprises me with something sweet.
28. I daydream about -- why i am so bored enough to daydream
29. I am attracted to -- right now- the angel's so beautiful.
30. I am unattracted to -- myself actually. How queer.

places you've slept before.

1) In sch :) Classroom, lecture threatre, library.
2)Orchard road once. The experience was really sweet.


Do you dream often? yaa. Hate dreams.
Do you drool when you sleep? :)~
Do you talk in your sleep? haha noo
Do you snore? no again
Do you sleep on your left side / right side? I'll sleep with you,right?
Do you enjoy sleeping? YES :D
Sleep with lights On or Off? off.
Which side of the bed do you wake? I always end up on the floor..
What do you normally do before you sleep? NET
What can't you not sleep without? My smelly blanket
--
1- Do you believe that love is forever? Maybe with THE one.
2-get hurt by people easily? i'm such a softie so yeah..
3- Do you believe that all people are generally good at heart? Look at me, i'm a prime example of the good at heart! Really..
5- Do mean people make you sad? ya.. but most of the time i'll make them sad too ..
6- Does ice cream make you happy? Ohh yes.. when she feeds me with ice-cream i'm in seven heaven.
7- Do you sing in the shower? Hahaha.. oh yes...
8- When it rains, do you like to splash in the puddles? Haha to annoy people like caine yes.
9- If you see a cute guy walk down the street, do you smile and tell him he's cute? MY GAY PARTNER'S SO CUTE ALREADY SO FUCK IT :X
10- Do you notice when people have pretty eyes? I love pwettyyy eyes. Oh yes.. Angel's got these pair of sparkling eyes that's so beautiful
11- Have you ever cried at a movie? Haha yeah.. i cried and asked her if she needed a tissue.
12- Is it cute when old people are holding hands? Oooh.. that's the sweetest thing on earth.
13- Are you a happy person? I'm depressive and suicidial.
14- Do you tend not to worry, even when you know something bad is about to happen? I worry like 247.
16- Have you ever laughed so hard your stomach hurt? Haha yeah.. the day at MOX :D, at sparks!
17- Was it recently? Haha yeah..
18- Are you slightly lazy? Slightly is seriously undermining the ability i truly possess.
19- Do you like to drive with the windows down? With the wind against my face, yes.
20- If you have twenty dollars, are you rich? If i've twenty dollar, i'll INVEST it *ahem make it fourty, and then eighty and then.. you get the point.

Readers, sorrry to bore you guys with this redundant survey today. Have a good night!




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Wednesday, August 04, 2004

To the sweetest and wonderfullest Nana : Happy sweet eighteen :D

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Tuesday, August 03, 2004

Studied unsuccessfully for the past few days, and every short 30 min session of mugging was spent on the bed snoozing for 1.5 hours. WTF.
And i'm shivering now like a baby pig and sneezing incessantly.Think i've caught someone's flu.argh. I wish not to miss school tml only because tomorrow's a short day. I wish however, that i'll be taken extremely ill on wed so i can AGAIN be absent on long-drawn-thursday.

I wish right now: (short run wishes)
for a nice PTM on sat ( please ms chua )
to stop sneezing RIGHT NOW
to receive a sudden windfall of money
to get to know the angel better x)

I wish: (long run wishes)
To comprehend what the elasicity of my econ really is, how gothic the gothic papers are ( my marks are really sinisterly gothic right now ) , and to artifact historical events.
To receive a windfall, and HUAT! with my friends.

A note to the angel.

Your occasional bashful glee
you bring about watts of shine
You shimmer in the darkness
Your twirls oh-so-fine.

If my superficiality's at fault
find me guilty right away
For it was that genuine beauty
that's gotten my heart to stay.














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Sunday, August 01, 2004

Robbery!! At yew tee's NTUC singapore pools counter. No suprise what i was there for, but unfortunately for the counter auntie i was far away buying my maggi noodles when the entire thing happened. So the guy (from what i guess) walked up to the glassed protected counter, casually reached in for the money bag, and ran! Wooo.. It was after 10 mins, when the auntie's TAH QIANG TAH QIANG ( robbery! ) was visibly audible when i realised what was going on. Poor auntie, she looked as though she was about to cry. :(



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