Saturday, July 31, 2004

At the sunset, look for the glow of radiance close to the horizon. It promises love, and a glimpse of hope.

What can i say but the whole carnival's been a BLAST? :) The many teams that came down to support our event, me being the hotdog seller! haha.. The many matches being played.

The boys were exceptionally exceptional. Fuckin' proud of em not to let their heads down even after the lost. The last game being the finale, we outshined the Singapore poly team and clinched a wonderful victory. Nothing except tears could ever replace the memorable moment. What a final game!

All thanks to the pj guys team, the old boys, and the screaming ladies.. You guys were awesome :)

This song's dedicated to ya'll mother fucker who chose not to give two winks about what the rest said, did yaself proud, and had the audacity to mother fucking sing this great song to the entire crowd :D

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

You know you can fly only if you BELIEVE.

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Friday, July 30, 2004

Nothing much, cept that Rugby carnival tml. Wish me lotsa luck guys! :)

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Thursday, July 29, 2004

The scent of vasoline
in the summertime
The feel of an icecube
Melting overtime
The world seems bigger
Than both of us
Yet it seems so small
when I begin to cry



An interesting conversation between Calvin and hobbes.

Calvin: Today at school, i tried to decide whether to cheat on my test.

Calvin: I wondered, is it better to do the right thing and fail.. or is it better to do the wrong thing and succeed?

Calvin: On the other hand, undeserved success gives no satisfaction... but on the other hand,well deserved failure gives no satisfaction either.

Calvin: Of course, almost everybody cheats some time or other. People always bend the rules if they think they can get away with it. Then again, that doesn't justify my cheating.

Calvin: Then i thought, look, cheating on one little test isn't such a big deal. It doesnt hurt anyone... But then i wondered if i was just rationalizing my unwillingness to accept the consequence of not studying.

Calvin: Still, in the real world, people care about success, not principles.... Then again, maybe that's why the world is in such a mess. What a dilemma!

Hobbes: So what did you decide?

Calvin: Nothing. I ran out of time and i had to turn in a blank paper.

Hobbes: Anymore, simply acknowledging the issue is a moral victory.

Calvin: Well, it just seemed wrong to cheat on an ethnic test.

 
Doesn't Calvin sounds like the fickle me? Not knowing where to go in life, not knowing where to turn to, who to turn to, and how to turn to. My mind's been actively sourcing out a new path in life least ( and most probably) i (should) be nicked out of the educational system. Should i simply throw all bits of hope to the wind? Or should i give it one last dash? Should i give it all up only just, because? Or should i not give a half-past-six anymore and finish the race?

I really really dunno, but i don't want to be a loser, dropping out at the last and final hurdle.

Anyway, acknowledging the issue was already a moral victory.





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Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Nothing particularly eventful today, just perharps the occasional deliberation of whether i should have my share of synthetic noodles for supper. Yes, no, yes, no.. I can't make up my mind. I'm eternally fickle minded, and an ugly procrastinator ( ok i'll think of whether i'm gonna have my noodles like later ok.. ) so i hardly ever get anything done, like my messy bedroom, my appalling studies, my life.


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Saturday, July 24, 2004

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clearAnd I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer. It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal. But lately I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel.
 
I lie, but hate being lied to. Isn't it all very strange?


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Friday, July 23, 2004

Another heated argument again. *shrugs*. I mean the occurance have been so frequent that it's becoming a normality. At least don't be so fucking dumb to see a big

slash

across my PHOTOCOPIED individual checklist and claim that its a work unrecognised by my teachers. My results showing, i'm PROBABLY gonna get grounded very soon, and they just told me i shall receive half of my allowance from hence forth. wah. Great big difference. I seriously can't wait for PTM.



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Wednesday, July 21, 2004

11.30pm. After a nightmare about me executing a person, and the spirit of the person coming back to haunt me.

Granted, when i'm sad
Can i please not eat my nasty dinner
Granted when i'm sad
Can i please play my music out louder

Granted, when i'm disappointed
Can i scream on top of my voice
Granted, when i'm disappointed
Can i just whine and lament about my pathetic life

Granted, when i'm upset
Can i please not answer your fucking rhethoric questions
Granted, when i'm upset
Can i please just listen to unpleasent renditions

Granted, it is only me after all
Would you let me turn off off the lights
Granted, it is only me after all
Would you tell me everything's alright.

 


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I want to scale every height further, soar every flight higher.
I want to take on new challanges,
to tell myself that i'm once more capable of achieving the impossible,
that i once had achieved.

It was remarkable that the j1 managed to fight off the undaunting j2s. The score was ultimately irrelevant in the end, but the entire scene was overwhelmingly sweet, both the j1 and j2.

Yet the strain had to work on itself on this day. Fuck. The numerous occasions where deep heat was sorely required on my upper thighs which led to kwok remarking ( how do you injure yourself *giggles* at that part? ). I was already very disappointed before the match itself because of my fucking strain, and i had to hobble myself up and down. And to add on to the disappointment AND embarrasment, SHE kept to her promise and turned up to watch the match. For whom i'll never know, but it sucks to be left on the sidelines, and to play a second fiddle. Probably, the best thing that came out of the entire match, was that i persisted with my horrid injured strain,sprinted, tackled, and ran loose, within that short spam of time.

I'm just so fucking disappointed la. Go away.


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Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Online adverts have gone a one up! FUG. It WAS ok to have pop up, stupid "you want to download stuff" pop up, but now its even more intrusive! I was surfing friendster when somehow the background speech didnt match very well with my music, and i found out its an AUDIO ADVERT! How the .... are we going to stop the advert from intruding?!


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Monday, July 19, 2004

Fug fug fug! I have a ligament strain!! :( Ogggayy god please lemme be fit enough to play in wed's game or else i'll be saaaad.
 
She will be loved-Maroon 5
 
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
 
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehowI want more
 
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
 
Tap on my window
 knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
 
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
 
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be lovedI know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
 
I know that goodbye means nothing
at all
 
My favourite song of the month :)


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Friday, July 16, 2004

I'm all worn out from all that rugby. Not that i'm complaining a single bit about the intensity, but it's just, really really really tiring. Yawns. The testimonial match against the j2's are coming up, and if any of you guys are reading this, get ready to get your ass dirrrrty :) Wish me luck guys!
 
 


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Thursday, July 15, 2004

I'm suffering the writer's blog. Get it, writer's blog? hur hur hur. Ok i'm just bored, school's the usual caine's being gay with me as usual, we're raking in big bucks as the team, i'm trying my darnest best to rake in educational results, tying up a couple of knotty relationships, that'll be about all.

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Tuesday, July 13, 2004

My dearest peng cheng, you've reached a stage of stupidity so unchallangable, you've absolutely surpassed all stage of expections. Honestly. Now pray hard you do not get hauled to the principal's office. Soon.

Other than that, my life's been very dead, no signs of any life at all if you ask me. Stagnanted social life, no girlDASHfriends. Darn.

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Saturday, July 10, 2004

Happy Sweet Seventeen Miss Lauren choy. :)

Sick+flu+fever= extremely tired+a rudolf's nose.


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Thursday, July 08, 2004

I listen to sad love songs;thus i sob.

I'm so good at forgetting
And I quit every game I play
But forgive me, love
I can't turn and walk away
This way

John mayer

To the love-lost, broken hearted, my deepest condolences. I can't seem to forget each relationship that i've been through, no matter how sordid it may have been, and how jerky i was to that (special) person i promised eternity ( and somewhat it never occured hurhur ), the remaining semblance of memories, it always returns to haunt; to question your intergrity, to probe why you never did kept to the promise of eternity.

Some grouses before i hop on to bed. My monitor is running on a 4bit colour program thing which sets every pictures ( yes you are thinking what i'm thinking right now ) and all colours come out monotoned, like a colourblind person staring at an object. School's starting, body clock's still not working, thus sleep deprevation occurs.

Good night everyone.

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Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Death, beckons.
It creeps up, stealthily.
Disappointment,disenchantment,disillusion,
pure devastation.
I feel like dying.

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Tuesday, July 06, 2004

I love love.

Funny how it is that i admonish mushy programmes like meteor garden, and what not, and still, love love.

There are many things on earth i love right now.

I love my family, as much as i think they love me.

I love the many beautiful things the divine one created, the many lovely spots i saw whilst i was out at the chalet. The pale blue sky, the rising sun, the muddy coastline, the twinkling stars,

and who can forget the many unforgettable moments we shared at the chalet.

These are the quinessential parts of my life that i can't live without, they are my dearest friends, and i just want to say i love you all even more, when each day passes.

Love is unpurchasable, pure, and wholehearted, because ultimately, true love stems from the heart. And that is why i did not put a number across to the people i love, simply because love is infinate, and there shouldn't be a figure to the people you love, and loves you back.

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Saturday, July 03, 2004

I've been throwing negligence to my blog, and i duly apologise for it, not. The exams have ended, and yes, sometimes blogging do take the least priority right now obviously for it is the carousel of fun laughter and joy that is truly taking centre stage right now.

Prior to Econs Mcq, we( nana, caine, xia yan, me) were already letting our hair down, feets apart, and doing the chicken dance. To which of course it's all a private joke you'll never know unless you join our fantastic random outings to "anywhere the mind desire tour outing organised by the retainees". The fun we had, it was truly tremandous. From techno-mocking chicken dances, random finger swinging in the air, and who can do without the superb leg movements. We were literally brawling with laughter.

It was a trip next to MOX for which i namely termed it the MALE ORGASMIC XTACSY club. It's located very discretly amongst the shophouses on Tanjong pagar street, and erm, the lift which would transport us to the club was apparently littered with the advertisement which read "LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, IF YOU EVER LIKED A GUY...." A forshadowing to what was to come? hahaha... Good lord, the guys inside the club were all hunks, but... shant elaborate further. Least i shall be approached like someone..... hahahaha.... and given endearing eyes stares. Somehow somewhat, it was all very morally questionable the ongoing sights. Though it had to be admitted that the overall ambience was nostalgic and soothing and the atmosphere was really lovely cept for the stinging fact that we were in a club, with contrasting lifestyles. I was amazed at the liberalness with the people in there, and was thinking how the semi-conservative folks of singapore (like me) would react to ... erm .... Cosmopolitian folks like them. God knows.

Enjoyed myself throughly this couple of days, and as i blog this, its another 6 hours before i project myself for another fun filled activity- Watching euro 2004. In my heart, i'll probably be rooting for the attacking portugal, but my money would ultimately go to the ugly greeks who know nothing but pray to athens for knowledge, and zeus for defensive playing (stamina) the whole of the 90 min.
Just so you wont think i'm a cheat, you hear it here first - Peng cheng's prediction for the euro2004 Finals
1) FULL TIME : 1-1 (extra time Portugal win by silver goal)



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Thursday, July 01, 2004

And the exams officially ended on a low. Predictions for score: ffe.

The apprentice on channel 5 is one heck of a new reality program. Donald trump is brillant the business man that he is. Manipulative as he is on the warfield, his every action is carried out within seconds, accompanied by his two trusty, but shrewd sidekicks.

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