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Monday, May 31, 2004 I haven't slept at all in days It's been so long since we've talked And I have been here many times I just don't know what I'm doing wrong What can I do Yeah. What can i do. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 10:32 AM [comment] {xoxo} Midnight strikes, Posing a figure of solitude in the lonely streets the dry leaves crackle as you trample on them a skip here and a jump there oblivious to the surrounding around you The odd couple, hands and hands reeling in absolute love you cannot help but feel jealous. Because i miss you so And you just chose to let go You tell yourself The night is still young. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 10:18 AM [comment] {xoxo} Sunday, May 30, 2004 This blogging seems to be generating more and more entries when it enters into the holidays, and i hope it doesnt turn out to be as a regular affair. I badly need to stick to my planned schedule this june and make it as meaningful as it can actually be. I told you how I felt, I told you what it meant, But I still haven't changed your mind, I know that you're afraid, You’re frightened of the pain, But you can let down your guard... Cause when we run, when we hide, We deny what's inside... What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it, What good is a love if you're too scared to choose it, If you're heart is beating, then it's for a reason, girl, If you're not willing to start, what good is a heart? Don't make the same mistake that people often make, And miss out on a chance for love, You've got to make your move, you've got to make it soon, Cause you're dying inside... Yes, I'm a man, but I cry, I have fears, I won't lie... What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it, What good is a love if you're too scared to choose it, If you're heart is beating, then it's for a reason, girl, If you're not willing to start, what good is a heart? Come on, babe, you know it, girl, Anyone who looks can see that I'm right, There's achance here, we could take it, regret it for the rest of our lives... What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it, What good is a love if you're too scared to choose it If you’re heart is beating, then it’s for a reason, girl, If you’re not willing to start, what good is a heart? Only my dearest darling caine could ever come up with something like " If you have a bird, its good for a threesome. " Sigh. Sometimes i wish matters could be altered this easily. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 6:22 AM [comment] {xoxo} Intended to spend the day at sentosa with her but she has had other plan. Spent the day in the morning instead with a simple lunch with the lost and disseminated brotherhood and it was CS after that. Nice sun out there for just a nice tan, but the weather's seem very dry. Urghs. Shall part from here to catch up with some family gathering, and then its off for a dutiful and intensive reading of the econ-monster texts. (grumbles) I miss you baby. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 12:01 AM [comment] {xoxo} Saturday, May 29, 2004 A couple of discoveries, a few matters at hand. Solving enigmatic da vinci code puzzles on a saturday noon seems enigmatically puzzling enough. Rouge is lovely, the music sucks.There are smelly people who didnt bath. I'm broke. The sceneries from the top of the city is gorgeous. You catch glimpse of the sea too.. J-singers are great singer. John mayers, Josh Groban ( my confession just blew my mind away ) Those simple moments of silence are best spend not in a crowded arena where accusations of deceit breed, but in the cozyness of the home where whisperings of sweet nothings flourish. So much for short phrases. That I feel myself surrender Each time I see your face. I am staggered by your beauty, Your unassuming grace. And I feel my heart is turning, Falling into place. I can't hide Now hear my confession. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 4:41 AM [comment] {xoxo} Thursday, May 27, 2004 I wonder sometimes about the outcome of a still verdictless life so what so i've got a smile on its hiding the quiet superstitions in my head dont believe me dont believe me when i say ive got it down everybody's just a stranger but that's the danger in going my own way i guess it's a price i have to pay still everything happens for a reason its no reason not to ask myself Why geogia why. Why geogia- John Mayers. If you're currently reading this instead of pouring labourishly over your General paper readings, shame on you as much as it is shame on me. It's just gentle tuning to John Mayer light tracks, plus a totally-wrongly-timed American idol finals to pre-empt me for the onslaught tomorrow. Extremely helpful indeed. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 7:34 AM [comment] {xoxo} Tuesday, May 25, 2004 And all i can say is that, I've been a fool. A fool to you A fool to myself That they say deceit is the warmest form of flattery, I say continue to play this game of bluff for at least this game wouldn't hurt as much as reality does. I wouldn't be so conceited to admit today was a good day even though it could have been. I met my long lost partner/ cum the other half my dearest brother jerry. And it was certainly a pleasent trip down cuz i really miss him a lot. But it was marred anyhow by some unpleasentries later on and to top the "sinister phrases of the year" was a quote by my form teacher to me: " Peng cheng, some teachers cannot wait to see you out of the school " . Like fuck. Like seriously i want myself to be out of the school system. Oh wait. Hey i do. FUCK. I do want out of this fucked-up system. These are my words That I've never said before I think I'm doing okay And this is the smile That I've never shown before Somebody shake me 'cause I I must be sleeping Honestly I'm so afraid of waking Please don't shake me Afraid of waking Please don't shake me Cuz i've fallen into a deep slumber. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 9:17 AM [comment] {xoxo} Monday, May 24, 2004 May i find another moment, as magical as i did today, the street lights a mere reflection of your shine your beauty that only you exudes It makes no difference that the day was drawing to a close for you remain warmly in my heart. Preciously locked. The memories remains of you and me. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 7:45 AM [comment] {xoxo} Sunday, May 23, 2004 Spend all your time waiting for that second chance For the break that will make it OK There's always some reason to feel not good enough And it's hard at the end of the day I need some distraction or a beautiful release Memories seep from my veins Let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight In the arms of the Angel far away from here From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie You're in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn There's vultures and thieves at your back The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies That you make up for all that you lack It don't make no difference, escaping one last time It's easier to believe In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness That brings me to my knees In the arms of the Angel far away from here From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie In the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here You're in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here The sinful indulgences explored about P at 2:22 AM [comment] {xoxo} You happen to know that you're officially addicted to the net, when its been only ( ONLY?! ) 24 hours your comp is down, and your body is suffering from muscle spasms. Good lord me. The lost time was duly made up for by the replacement of the Da vinci code book, which i am proud to announce i've officially completed. Uneventful(ness). The sinful indulgences explored about P at 2:05 AM [comment] {xoxo} Wednesday, May 19, 2004 Its probably one of the bestest day of the year. Having things run smoothly the entire day for once. Being conferred the bestest speaker was definately sweet. Especially when you were against tough and challanging speakers. Thanks to the floor who voted for me :) And the feeling later on was, indescribable. :) The sinful indulgences explored about P at 5:55 AM [comment] {xoxo} Its the intertwining of the bodyily motion that exists a singular individual being. :) The sinful indulgences explored about P at 5:38 AM [comment] {xoxo} Tuesday, May 18, 2004 Today's fucked-up enough to warrant a hop back to home early. Love: A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. /A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance. Go figure. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 3:11 AM [comment] {xoxo} Sunday, May 16, 2004 The deeper your wounds are, the vulnerablity of you getting hurt increases, even if you try hard to stop the pain from getting worse. The scabs never seem to heal properly, and even so it leaves behind an ugly scar to remind you of the pain you've been through. Intend to be done up with da vinci code, as well as prozaz nation soon, both difficult readings, prozac being especially hard to digest, but extremely revelent. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 9:13 AM [comment] {xoxo} Hiding from the rain and snow Trying to forget but I won't let go Looking at a crowded street Listening to my own heart beat So many people all around the world Tell me where do I find someone like you girl Take me to your heart take me to your soul Give me your hand before I'm old Show me what love is - haven't got a clue Show me that wonders can be true They say nothing lasts forever We're only here today Love is now or never Bring me far away Take me to your heart take me to your soul Give me your hand and hold me Show me what love is - be my guiding star It's easy take me to your heart Standing on a mountain high Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky I should go and see some friends But they don't really comprehend Don't need too much talking without saying anything All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing Mltr- Take me to your heart one of the ultimate sappy love song bands. Everyone, go d/l this song, and tell me whose musical notes this song belongs to actually. I love the chinese version one more actually. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 1:16 AM [comment] {xoxo} Saturday, May 15, 2004 Last night was, wasted, well. :) 5,6 shots? Came home dizzy and couldnt find my specs and was a blind bat the entire night till this morning. YOU made the movie extremely special. This feeling inside me, i don't want to lose it. :) I'm a happy boy right now after a long time. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 7:13 PM [comment] {xoxo} Friday, May 14, 2004 You laugh and mock at everyone and think that you're been the greatest, until one day you realised the subject of mockery had been you yourself. You have been everybody's fool. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 11:37 PM [comment] {xoxo} Thursday, May 13, 2004 Betrayal. Heart-wrench. Pain. Tears. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 4:24 AM [comment] {xoxo} Wednesday, May 12, 2004
I was surfing some forum when i came across this really funny road sign story. Though its in chinese, i shall intrepret it for the non-chinese population.
The sinful indulgences explored about P at 5:47 AM [comment] {xoxo} Have you ever fallen in love so deeply that you would just give the world up for that special person? The sinful indulgences explored about P at 4:49 AM [comment] {xoxo} Tuesday, May 11, 2004 Usher- You got it bad Oh no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no When you feel it in your body You found somebody who Makes you change your ways Like hanging wit' your crew Said you act like you ready But you don't really know And everything in your past You wanna let it go I been there, done it, humped around (ha) After all that, this is what I found Nobody wants to be alone If you're touched by the words in this song Then maybe You got it, you got it bad When you're on the phone Hang up and you call right back (Ooh) You got it, you got it bad If you miss a day without your friend Your whole life's off track You know you got it bad when You stuck in the house You don't wanna have fun 'Cos all you think about You got it bad when you're out with someone But you keep on thinkin' 'bout somebody else You got it bad When you say that you love 'em And you really know everything That used to matter don't matter no more Like my money all my cars You can have it all and Flowers, cards and candy I do it just 'cos I said I'm fortunate to have you girl I want you to know I really adore you All my people that know what's going on Look at your mate help me sing my song Tell her I'm your man You're my girl I'm gonna tell it to the whole wide world Ladies, say I'm your girl You're my man Promise to love you the best I can See I've been there, done it, humped around After all that, this is what I found Every one of y'all are just like me It's too bad that you can't see That you got it bad You got it, you got it bad When you're on the phone Hang up and you call right back (Ooh) You got it, you got it bad If you miss a day without your friend Your whole life's off track You know you got it bad when You stuck in the house You don't wanna have fun 'Cos all you think about You got it bad when you're out with someone But you keep on thinkin' 'bout somebody else You got it bad You got it, you got it bad When you're on the phone Hang up and you call right back (Ooh) You got it, you got it bad If you miss a day without your friend Your whole life's off track You know you got it bad when You stuck in the house You don't wanna have fun 'Cos all you think about You got it bad when you're out with someone But you keep on thinkin' 'bout somebody else You got it bad Usher songs playing over the stare-ree-o over and over and over again playing to the tunes of "you make me wanna" "you remind me" "you got it bad" Life serves no meaning in any particular order right now but to savour aight songs with aight tunes. No girls, no one but this lonesome heart just playing the game for one. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 7:31 AM [comment] {xoxo} Monday, May 10, 2004 Blogger's become more user friendly and i like that. The fucking tag-board needs shit stuffed up its arse though. Incredibly irritating. Breaks down every alternate day. Today wasn't particularly fulfilling, though i did enjoy it quite a bit. Had few lessons, got a good tan under the blistering weather got down to some serious survivor watching. I intend to maximise every day as meaningfully as i can now, like achieving a new goal/ target everyday so my life wouldn't seem a futile-like it is right now. Sometimes i just want to break down, scream to the unjust world, to God for giving me this life, and then just stumble to the ground- and revell with tears- what this life have meant. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 7:53 AM [comment] {xoxo} Saturday, May 08, 2004 I have no idea what's in me. My face is becoming more and more qiao qui ( worn-out ) by the day. I'm disintergreting into fragments of shattered pieces, each telling a tale of a failed life-time. Today was i thought a productive one. Did lotsa stuff to occupy myself meaningfully, before hoping down to boat quay to meet nana and gang. Sadly, the incident later on marred my day, though the good thing was that i arrived home before 12. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 9:19 AM [comment] {xoxo} Thursday, May 06, 2004 I feel so sinful these days, browsing through trashy novels ( i'm on a book called Shanghai baby right now, and i just completed nicholas spark's guardian ) i feel so, sissy. Anyhow, i've neglected my studies badly, and i'm gonna do a econ mcq dash just in time for the mcq test tomorrow. After school came a really funny incident. The girl ( caine's friend as usual ) whom i confide to him i thought was rather cute, somewhat walked past me, without me noticing. Nana spoke of something like hey this's a cute girl or something which got me turning back and telling them i find her cute too :P then went i turn back to look at her cuz nana wanted me to confirm her identity cuz she was with a friend, she turned back and smiled ! :) The sinful indulgences explored about P at 7:14 AM [comment] {xoxo} Tuesday, May 04, 2004 I feel weird saying unpromised i love you. Quoted from Prozac Nation -The young and depressed- Prologue "I start to get the feeling that something is really wrong. Like all the drugs put together- that i took to sleep at night-can no longer combat whatever it is that was wrong with me in the first place. I feel like a defective model, like i came off the assembly line flat-out fucked and my parents should have taken me back for repairs before the warranty ran out." The sinful indulgences explored about P at 8:28 AM [comment] {xoxo} Monday, May 03, 2004 I thought the notes on GP were particularly thought provoking. And if you have not guessed it already, yes, its about thoughts. How thoughts transcends across boundaries, explores institutions, wrecks absolute havoc. And still is silent and unassertive. How dangerous thoughts can be if unleased into the modern realm. And i'm wondering, what you are thinking of right now.. Editors note 1020: One thought been nagging me this morning, was shocked to hear one of the biggest and most shocking news thus far. Morning bus journeys are never going to be the same again... The sinful indulgences explored about P at 7:03 AM [comment] {xoxo} Saturday, May 01, 2004 I realised i'm not easily satisfied after all. Ah bengs irks me, and ahbenglish language disgust me. ( though it's rumoured i might be an ah beng, and that news has it that there's this really funny indian in school who thinks i'm the biggest pai kia in school, i'm most definately NOT an ah beng dammit ). I take pride in speaking immaculate english vulgar words. I was just random-browsing friendster profile when i came across this really really horrible profile with so many horrible horrible testimonials. Here goes one: ~~~!! _#Wah.. YOu MuSt be REal kawAii Ba.. WAh duno why lah..~#@# sian 1/2 $#@la i think y@#$ou're arE realY cuTE lor. ! (*.*) wah bianGgs ehH i lOVe You loR 13143344 5566 7788. These people are seriously lacking in 1) A proper english education 2) Brains 3) Creativity 4) Love 5) Guts I hate bengs. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 9:54 PM [comment] {xoxo} Its pretty darn silly how you refuse to think about the past, but its always fight back to be recollected. Like a repressed monster yearning to burst out of that pathetic neurotic system of yours. That numb sensation when events get played over/ and over/ and over/ in your brain, its haunting. Now everyone, tell me why you blog. I know some do it for their love ones, some to rant, most just a subtle denial from reality. BUT WHOEVER BLOGS LIKE THIS SHOULD JUST BE KILLED. " Today i think Cheryl saw me ah! wah.. wah i think she finds me hot man.. lol.. and ah.. i think she's in love with me ah.. how ah? die la.. number 666 thinks i'm cute la.. she's in love with me too i think.. eh elizabeth the 3rd saw me too! She msged me telling how handsome i was.. sigh.. they're so nice! die la.. who shall i fall in love with? aiyo.. lol.." 1,2,3 i see you laughing already. yay. Peng cheng's blog was never meant as an entertainment outlet so don't bother even entering if you're looking for a good laugh. But occasionally i do find an occasional spasm to cheer the world up from my depressive suicidial self so like fuckit. And i'm telling you, if you're playing games i don't want to know. If you're playing games, keep it on the low. The sinful indulgences explored about P at 12:25 AM [comment] {xoxo} |
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